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Collapsed mind

Wed Nov 26, 2008, 2:56 PM
I'm having lots of destroyed minds around. But recently I see how much members of my family have fallen apart. One person worries me most. He's became toxic in last three years and destroys every erson close to him. Well... in my opinion a treatment should be started, theraphy maybe, but how to convince a person, who believes in his own infallibility more than anything? That's a hard nut to crack. Also living with person like that, who additionally tends to forget what's been said with addition of serious problems with logical argumentation, reminds me of living on minefield. It is so, you never know when it's gonna explode and how and what about.

Let's analyze today's example:
He: Did you bring it?
Me: yes, it's in my car.
He: Are you telling me that I have to go for that to your car!? (shouting starts here and ends 4 minutes later)

And there I think...
1) Where the hell did I say that HE has to go for that thing?
2) geez, car is in front of the house. Getting in there takes about 45 seconds including dressing up (mainly shoes) and it'd not kill anyone to go outside!
3) I could go there. I don't mind. But it's better to shout at me with no reason than ask me, right?

At first I was guessing it's the age problem. Climax possibly, because the symptoms match a bit. But now I start to worry that it's something more. And still, talk does nothing. When we try to talk to him it ends up in either accusing us of various stuff (mostly the stuff he is doing, even gaining weight!) or in random shouting and abuse. Professional help seems impossible, because he pretends to be normal, happy open etc in front of everyone. But when the door close, the minefild activates again. Moreover it seems to be impossible to make him do anything. Walking the dog, taking care of the lawn, trees, even going for a drink outside the house, even getting the salt from kitchen, or cigarettes from livingroom. It's like having talking and very annoying vegetable. Useless, yet impossible to ignore.

  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: Polskie Radio Program Trzeci
  • Eating: Solar energy I guess...
  • Drinking: St. John's wort infusion

Awesome!

Thu Sep 11, 2008, 3:13 AM


I've just found this tutorial: [link] and... as the work is just regular layer-gradient-liquify grinding, which I often do myself while retouching, I must say I totally admire the effect and the idea. I mean, dude, it's made of oranges!

And also, if you work in Adobe's suite and look for tricks or inspiration, you should totally check out the [link] LayersTV. The podcast is free and really worth subscribing. And not only because of presented tutorials, it's full of inspirational examples. And after watching an episode you can download the file and try it yourself.


  • Mood: Wow!
  • Listening to: Polskie Radio Program Trzeci
  • Eating: I want WHOOPER!
  • Drinking: Espresso

Straight Story

Thu Jul 10, 2008, 2:19 AM


Watched the movie again. This time with my Beloved One. And again I believe it's my favourite Lynch's movie. And it's about a man named Straight and about setting things straight as well. It made me thinking about my own life, which also starts getting straight. Not only I (finally!) have some business to run, stidies to study, also finished my treatment (actually it finished itself, because after zdzichu disappered from my life, I don't need it anymore), and a life to live.

I'm not moving into your place untill you buy a washing machine - once I said to my boyfriend. Meanwhile, yesterday, I found one, small and looking as it could work few years. At the moment I am waiting for nice men from the store to bring it in and set up. I guess now I need to pack and bring my stuff here, don't I? Thinking like this makes me smile. Everything goes so fine. And we have no need to hurry with anything.

I'm working mainly on photos lately, but inside I have some ideas of paintings and drawings and sculptures. I'll bring them to live as soon as possible and make them available on DA for you. I also wonder how things would work for me with oil painting, which I never tried. Somehow I'm usually not satisfied with my work with paint (unless it's painting furniture), but I believe I could handle it with good preperation. I'd love to try decorating a pottery too, have few designs in my mind, but no materials yet. Moreover, I can't wait to get Tarhim's Uaz in my hands. It's going to be my biggest (at least in size) design project!


  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Polskie Radio Program Trzeci

Photo overload

Mon May 26, 2008, 4:42 PM


That's not a secret that I'm photo freak. I can spend all day terrorizing a person or object with my Wide Lens of Fear and Long Lens of Darkness... But from time to time I get sudden strike of the feeling that eventually I'll run out of disk space before I'll manage to process all my creations and publish them. Or - at least - sort them in reasonable way. My plan is to spend few days with my beloved Graphire and finally get on top of the pile. Wish me luck. I'll need it.

Hopefully getting rid of pile of photos will help me with convincing myself that I am capable of setting other parts of my life straight. Again I ask you all, wish me luck with that. I'll need it.


  • Mood: Artistic

Photo Camera

Tue Apr 8, 2008, 4:24 PM


To all of you who keep telling me that EOS 400d is better than Nikon D40: I don't give a shit. I just don't like how Canon organizes menus of cameras.


  • Mood: Disgust

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